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Title: I'm Back
Post by: SlideRacker on March 25, 2011, 08:02:57 PM
Sorry for the long time between post. The truth is that I lost my 17 year old son on July 31 of last year. I have not been myself since. I have been trying to upload all my new gun stuff tonight but the files are too large. I will keep working on it.
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Post by: BAC on March 25, 2011, 08:16:17 PM
So sorry to hear of your loss.  That would devastate me beyond words.
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Post by: PegLeg45 on March 25, 2011, 08:19:32 PM
Sorry for your loss...I can't imagine the feeling.

Glad you got around to getting back here.
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Post by: jstm on March 25, 2011, 08:55:27 PM
Day by Day best of luck to you & yours.
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Post by: twyacht on March 25, 2011, 09:00:39 PM
Hard to find words Slideracker, except to say you are among friends here, and we all hope and pray for you and your family... All the best.

Glad your back on the Forum.

Take Care,

tw

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Post by: MikeBjerum on March 25, 2011, 10:20:13 PM
Sorry to hear that, but glad you could stumble back in.
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Post by: tombogan03884 on March 25, 2011, 10:35:14 PM
That's a hard thing to deal with. Glad your coming back.
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Post by: Hazcat on March 25, 2011, 10:47:09 PM
Welcome back, Slideracker.  My heartfelt condolences from one Dad to another.  Good to see you 'back in the swing on things'.
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Post by: kmitch200 on March 25, 2011, 11:39:55 PM
Welcome back.

Sorry to hear the bad news.
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Post by: Teresa Heilevang on March 26, 2011, 01:44:46 AM
There isn't even any words.. I truly do not know if I could survive that..   I am so so sorry that your heart has had to hurt like that. Please know that we are all here if you need an ear to just listen... and you want to talk.   My heart will send your heart  some healing energy ..
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Post by: ellis4538 on March 26, 2011, 05:33:19 AM
What everyone said and more.

God Bless,

Richard
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Post by: crusader rabbit on March 26, 2011, 07:42:32 AM
There are a whole lot of "Dads" here.  Not one of us can begin to imagine the magnitude of your loss.  Mere words are insufficient, but they are all we have.  I am deeply sorry for your loss, and it is good to have you back.

Crusader
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Post by: Solus on March 26, 2011, 07:45:28 AM
Damn.....

"I used to cry because I  had no shoes until I met a man who had no feet"


Glad you made it back, SlideRacker. 

Take care.
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Post by: CJS3 on March 26, 2011, 09:52:40 AM
Glad you're back. I hope life becomes a little easier for you down the road. We all wish you well.
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Post by: sledgemeister on March 26, 2011, 10:58:56 AM
I cant imagine what that would begin to feel like to lose one of my kids.
My deepest sympathies.
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Post by: jaybet on March 26, 2011, 11:06:12 AM
We're very sorry for your loss and we're praying for all of you.
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Post by: SlideRacker on March 28, 2011, 10:58:07 AM
Thank you all for your kind words. My son's birthday was yesterday as well as mine. He was born on my 18th birthday. I don't really think a parent survives the loss of a child. I think the best way to describe it is to say that my life has been devided in to two parts before and after. I don't think I dealt as well as I have seen others, but I guess it all depends on the relationship you had with the child and how strong you are to begin with. I always thought I was strong, but not so much. As far as the relationship, he was my best friend and the pride of my life.
I had made myself a promise that on our birthday, I would change some things in my life. I would pick up some of the things I once enjoyed with him. Most important, after the wreck I had picked up something else - a vodka bottle. I am done with that. 8 months is long enough to wear that bandaid. Time to clear out the fog and see the sun again. I am truely back- back from a very dark place. Nice have people here to greet me.
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Post by: Solus on March 28, 2011, 11:28:45 AM
Thank you all for your kind words. My son's birthday was yesterday as well as mine. He was born on my 18th birthday. I don't really think a parent survives the loss of a child. I think the best way to describe it is to say that my life has been devided in to two parts before and after. I don't think I dealt as well as I have seen others, but I guess it all depends on the relationship you had with the child and how strong you are to begin with. I always thought I was strong, but not so much. As far as the relationship, he was my best friend and the pride of my life.
I had made myself a promise that on our birthday, I would change some things in my life. I would pick up some of the things I once enjoyed with him. Most important, after the wreck I had picked up something else - a vodka bottle. I am done with that. 8 months is long enough to wear that bandaid. Time to clear out the fog and see the sun again. I am truely back- back from a very dark place. Nice have people here to greet me.

Don't think you are not strong, SlideRacker.

No one can be strong enough not to be knocked to the mat and be down there for a long count....especially when the lose is so great.

No, your strength should not be measured on how you stood up to that blow, but, instead, how you manage to get yourself back up again and heading up out of that pit.

It is not an easy fight, as you know, but you are doing good. 

That is true strength. 
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Post by: tt11758 on March 28, 2011, 04:50:28 PM
There isn't even any words.. I truly do not know if I could survive that..   I am so so sorry that your heart has had to hurt like that. Please know that we are all here if you need an ear to just listen... and you want to talk.   My heart will send your heart  some healing energy ..

I couldn't have said it better, so I won't even try.
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Post by: tt11758 on March 28, 2011, 04:52:16 PM
Don't think you are not strong, SlideRacker.

No one can be strong enough not to be knocked to the mat and be down there for a long count....especially when the lose is so great.

No, your strength should not be measured on how you stood up to that blow, but, instead, how you manage to get yourself back up again and heading up out of that pit.

It is not an easy fight, as you know, but you are doing good. 

That is true strength. 

Again, I couldn't have said it better.
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Post by: shooter32 on March 29, 2011, 01:02:10 PM
Don't think you are not strong, SlideRacker.

No one can be strong enough not to be knocked to the mat and be down there for a long count....especially when the lose is so great.

No, your strength should not be measured on how you stood up to that blow, but, instead, how you manage to get yourself back up again and heading up out of that pit.

It is not an easy fight, as you know, but you are doing good. 

That is true strength. 

+1 well said.