It's okay to vent. We're here to listen. Tough week, J. But hang in there.
Now I'm not a advocate of ditching modern medicine, but it wouldn't hurt to occupy some of your time with doing a little research. Sometimes natural cures can help. You never know. My big beef with one cure fits all medicine is that it doesn't. Each of us has unique DNA and unique body chemistry. What might not mean squat to one person, could be life saving to another.