I really, really, hate to hear that for you. It's going to be tough for a while but there is strength in the Lord. Not too long ago I had my cell and thought I'd call my daddy...he's been gone for over four years now. He passed on 16 Dec. It rained Christmas Eve night and my Mom was worried in the morning about the dirt settling on his grave so I was there break of dawn Christmas morning to move dirt over. I had a really good conversation with him that morning....the Bible has examples of an open heaven from now and then where those who have gone on can witness what is transpiring...I think that was one of those times.