I have competed now for over 25 years, and I wonder if any of you other competitors have experienced the same thing I have.
In the beginning everything was new, learning, applying and getting better all the time. Finally your doing good, going up in classes, D then C, then B, then A class, then master etc... After achieving high status, it began not to be fun in the same way anymore, to be competitive, I had to show up with my game face on, and win. It is a lot like a job. What used to be fun just in the sake of doing it took on another face. I would hang around after the match, if I could and do some fun stuff, like shooting long range handgun, 100 meters plus, or shooting small targets that most people would think should not be hit with a handgun, and instructing newbies. Sometimes some of us salty dogs would do what we call trick shots, not really tricks, just different forms of shooting, with our pistols upside down, using our little finger to pull the trigger, or splitting playing cards etc...
Now after 8 years of laying off, I'm getting back into it, and the match I shot last Sunday, had me back into the same mindset, I came in X place, I made these mistakes, I can correct this amount and come in X place. This many seconds off the pace and if I practice really hard, I can come this close this fast. Shooting is becoming work all over. I don't intend to stop, but what makes us do this.
My condition is not burnout, not apathy, I just want the fun back. I just cannot compete, unless I'm competitive.
Any thoughts?



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