Good Luck! You are not alone. Society has tried to tell me my entire life that the best thing to do is to comply. If I had a penny for everytime I've heard that "everyone that carries a gun and tries to use it in self defense just has it taken away and used on them" I'd be living in a motorhome on the southern coasts every winter.
We have been bred to be a bunch of sheep ready for slaughter.
Watch those videos over and over and over, and break the cycle!